LOVE (pt. 1)
Caution! Vulnerability Incoming!-Maybe it’s just me, but I have a hard time letting people in. I’ve been hurt a lot in the past, as I’m sure many of us have. Human’s are human, and you hope they’re intentions are never to hurt you. You hope that someone, somewhere will see life the same way you do.
During the day, in between pauses of work, I find myself thinking about love and how sometimes its such a jerk. Were the other times actually true? Because I know I felt it, but how could it be when they left after I melted. It’s like they turn up the heat just to make you feel, then back away cause the burn was too real.
I guess love can just be love for a short time, does anything last forever?
I can be a little cynical, but I’m hopeful too. Getting hurt is inevitable in life especially when love is in play. I never wanted to make it a game, but they’re constantly on the defensive. Making moves, pivot and reverse, back up, so you adjust. Can’t be who you truly are cause this worlds only about lust.
Once they get what they want, that’s when the game is over. Back to square one.
I just want something real. Something strong, something willing to work and bend but never break. I want something that’s peaceful and happy, never fake. I want trust and truth so abundantly clear. I want all the PDA and loving aggression. I want to wrestle your ass to the ground to express all our passion. I want hand kisses and sweet things whispered in my ear. I want to get the fuck out of my head whenever you’re near. Make me breathe, make me quiver, make me stare, please deliver.
I don’t know what I’m doing half the time, my thoughts just start thinking in rhyme…
Anyway, here’s a little poem I wrote a while back about love-
I want my heart to be felt through every word that I speak,
I want the waves of emotion to take over the depths of the sea.
I want the transition between everything that I do,
to create a beauty that’s unstoppable and refreshing, something that’s so new.
Until minds expand and see beyond their own limiting thoughts.
Ill stay the course and continue to plan and build without any remorse.
Growing with the flow, allowing expansion and sight.
20/20 vision from now until the day that I die.
Being abandoned so young leaves you feeling this way, like everything that you do, won’t make anyone stay.
So at this point who cares, they can pass you by.
It doesn’t matter anymore you’re going to always survive.
They can use and they can take, maybe they needed it all to be stronger.
You give so much, you may break, you won’t last that much longer.
But your beauty still shines and your head still held high, the crown on your mane, invisible to the naked eye.
Those sparkles will catch a certain person one time, he’s everything you’ve been wanting for all of your life.
Butterflies in your tummy and dancing in the sky, the journey will be bumpy but worth it, just take your time.
Love is abundant and looking for you, ready to wrap you in its arms and carry your baggage.
Open your door, then make love to you savage.
The old pain is finally gone and your intentions are clear.
You’ve unmasked each other, naked, so there’s no longer fear.
And as you gaze at the body holding the soul you adore, your eyes are happy and gleaming because you’re finally sure.
A kiss seals the connection, there’s no end in sight.
This love will last forever, it’s time for him to make you his wife.
Let’s take it all in and imagine the day where you say I do as the waves wash away all the crap of the past, a fresh start of your dreams, with the man that you love who restored all your seams.
He mended your soul and erased all the pain with his strong gentle presence, the sunshine after the rain.
He knows all your beauty, he appreciates your talents, he thinks of you always and restored your balance.
